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Inicialmente las experiencias fueron positivas. Yo estaba viviendo fuera de la realidad convencional. Sabes, un sentido de la conciencia muy intenso. Umm, una especie de delirios de grandeza bastante agradables. Abría un periódico y pensaba que todo se refería a mí. Si estaba escuchando la radio del coche suponía que el DJ me hablaba a mí directamente y cada canción tenía un mensaje solo para mí y durante una etapa experimentaba la realidad como si todo Londres estuviera a cien metros debajo del agua lo que era bastante extremo. Era una realidad bastante extraña para vivir. Algo bastante angustiante era experimentar...umm...un accidente nuclear, quiero decir, para mí era como si hubieran explotado bombas nucleares y estuviera sintiendo la radiación. Sentía la enfermedad de la radiación y este tipo de cosas me ocurrieron varias veces.
Las primeras voces que empecé a escuchar mucho eran de mi familia, mi madre, mi padre, hermana, hermano, pero más adelante eran muy persecutorias, nada placenteras, para nada algo con lo que quisiera continuar. Encuentro sorprendente el poder del cerebro humano para recrear 10 ó 20 voces perfectamente. Quiero decir, las voces eran muy angustiantes, la impresión era que me animaban a autolesionarme o al suicidio. Se fueron haciendo bastante desagradables. Recuerdo escribir en mi diario "Dios nunca pude imaginar que la realidad normal pudiera volver", supongo que en función de la interpretación médica usando algo de esta psicosis encontré opciones para salir de esta desagradable situación.
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Initially the experiences were quite positive. I was living outside consensus reality….You know a very heightened sense of awareness... Umm kind of delusions of grandeur which are quite pleasant… So I’d open up a newspaper and I’d think it would all refer to me. if I was listening to the radio in the car I’d assume that the DJ was talking directly at me and that every song had a message to myself and at one stage I was experiencing reality as if the whole of London was under a 100 metres of water which was pretty extreme. It was a pretty strange reality to be in. A very distressing one was experiencing… umm… a nuclear fall out I mean for me nuclear bombs had gone off I was feeling radiation. I was feeling radiation sickness and this kind of thing happened several times.
I mean the first voices I started hearing a lot of was my family so my Mother, Sister, Brother, Father, but later on they were very persecutory that wasn’t pleasant and it wasn’t something I wanted to continue. I do find it amazing the power of the human brain that it can recreate you know 10, 20 voices perfectly. I mean the voices were very distressing the, the, the impression is they were encouraging me to self harm or commit suicide. They were getting pretty nasty. I remember writing in my Journal God I could never imagine the old normal reality coming back I suppose taking on some of the medical interpretation that this is psychosis gave me some more options to get out of a very unpleasant situation.
Inicialmente las experiencias fueron positivas. Yo estaba viviendo fuera de la realidad convencional. Sabes, un sentido de la conciencia muy intenso. Umm, una especie de delirios de grandeza bastante agradables. Abría un periódico y pensaba que todo se refería a mí. Si estaba escuchando la radio del coche suponía que el DJ me hablaba a mí directamente y cada canción tenía un mensaje solo para mí y durante una etapa experimentaba la realidad como si todo Londres estuviera a cien metros debajo del agua lo que era bastante extremo. Era una realidad bastante extraña para vivir. Algo bastante angustiante era experimentar...umm...un accidente nuclear, quiero decir, para mí era como si hubieran explotado bombas nucleares y estuviera sintiendo la radiación. Sentía la enfermedad de la radiación y este tipo de cosas me ocurrieron varias veces.
Las primeras voces que empecé a escuchar mucho eran de mi familia, mi madre, mi padre, hermana, hermano, pero más adelante eran muy persecutorias, nada placenteras, para nada algo con lo que quisiera continuar. Encuentro sorprendente el poder del cerebro humano para recrear 10 ó 20 voces perfectamente. Quiero decir, las voces eran muy angustiantes, la impresión era que me animaban a autolesionarme o al suicidio. Se fueron haciendo bastante desagradables. Recuerdo escribir en mi diario "Dios nunca pude imaginar que la realidad normal pudiera volver", supongo que en función de la interpretación médica usando algo de esta psicosis encontré opciones para salir de esta desagradable situación.
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Initially the experiences were quite positive. I was living outside consensus reality….You know a very heightened sense of awareness... Umm kind of delusions of grandeur which are quite pleasant… So I’d open up a newspaper and I’d think it would all refer to me. if I was listening to the radio in the car I’d assume that the DJ was talking directly at me and that every song had a message to myself and at one stage I was experiencing reality as if the whole of London was under a 100 metres of water which was pretty extreme. It was a pretty strange reality to be in. A very distressing one was experiencing… umm… a nuclear fall out I mean for me nuclear bombs had gone off I was feeling radiation. I was feeling radiation sickness and this kind of thing happened several times.
I mean the first voices I started hearing a lot of was my family so my Mother, Sister, Brother, Father, but later on they were very persecutory that wasn’t pleasant and it wasn’t something I wanted to continue. I do find it amazing the power of the human brain that it can recreate you know 10, 20 voices perfectly. I mean the voices were very distressing the, the, the impression is they were encouraging me to self harm or commit suicide. They were getting pretty nasty. I remember writing in my Journal God I could never imagine the old normal reality coming back I suppose taking on some of the medical interpretation that this is psychosis gave me some more options to get out of a very unpleasant situation.
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